The last few days have gone pretty well.
Trying to keep up with exercising. I walked Mantelli with a couple girlfriends and the kids, I went to zumba last night, and today I thik I'll walk our driveway, which is a windy, uphill trek.
I'm also still having moments of mental weakness, where I want to cheat, but I don't. It's not easy though. Last night I went to bed crying. I came home from Zumba and the house was smelling like sweet smokey BBQ chicken. I couldn't even go in the house because I wanted to tear into that chicken so bad.
I sat outside and called a friend, which was the best thing I could've done at the time... it helped tremendously.
Also, I've been texting one of the girls from class. That helps too!
Anyway, another football game tonight and no plans for the weekend as of yet.
I pray that this weekend is not like the last. . . need to keep busy ;-)
Friday, September 9, 2011
DAY 7 - Sept. 6, 2011
I LOST 11 POUNDS!!!
We had our weekly meeting and it was interesting to see how everyone else did. I hate to admit it, but I felt pretty good about myself after I heard how many people cheated. I know that's bad, but I think it's cause I know how hard the first week was, not just for me, but everyone else. . . and I did it!
In class we focused on the positive changes and talked a lot about increasing our exercise.
I was happy to report my progress to my friends and family.
Having them compliment me is one of my biggest motivators ♥
We had our weekly meeting and it was interesting to see how everyone else did. I hate to admit it, but I felt pretty good about myself after I heard how many people cheated. I know that's bad, but I think it's cause I know how hard the first week was, not just for me, but everyone else. . . and I did it!
In class we focused on the positive changes and talked a lot about increasing our exercise.
I was happy to report my progress to my friends and family.
Having them compliment me is one of my biggest motivators ♥
Monday, September 5, 2011
DAY 6 - Sept. 5, 2011
Hardest day yet. . . I went to my first family BBQ.
So the family we ran into the other day asked us to come over today for some tacos.
I told my family I could do it. Saturday morning seemed hard to me because I felt like I was only thinking of food because I wasn't "doing" anything. Well after today, I'm pretty sure that's true.
I had my shake immediately after getting to their house. It was just our 2 families, no one else, which turned out to be a little hard as well. I figured if there were other people I could talk to or do someting with I might not have so preoccupied with thinking of food. Maybe that's just my coping though, maybe my desire for food, as strong as it was, will be there no matter what??
Anyway, I had my shake while eveyone ate lunch. I smelled everything too. A little after everyone ate, I was starting to want food. Thankfully, our friend was having a hard time shucking oysters, so I gladly took over. It kept my mind off of wanting to eat. Unfortunately, there were only about 20 of them so it didn't last too long.
While they were grilling I constantly thought of the gralic butter that was being poured inside them. Mmmm! I wanted to drink the melted butter and fresh crushed garlic! I watched the adults eat them and felt bad for myself, but then thought "no, it's just food. You need to be strong." This happened a few more times troughout the day... Me thinking of food and then me telling my self to 'stay strong.'
My husband and kids helped my telling me I was doing good.
The 5-7p time was the hardest. Everyone was gettng hungry again. I had kept a cup of Clamato and cup of garlic in front of me that I was periodically smelling (my son thinks this will turn into some kind od OCD/ bad habit)
I had to keep myself busy again. . . so, even though it may sound dumb, I sarted making snacks out of the food. (mixing bean dip w garlic, cutting tomotes, and putting that on a chip and giving one at a time to everyone) I know it sounds like a dumb idea, but it reallllly helped. Just by me keeping my hands busy, even if it was mixing or cutting food, I felt like my mind was somewhere other than wanting to eat the food.
It was near 730p and I was out of shakes so we said our goodbyes.
I never enjoyed my replacement bar this much as I did when I got home
A few notes- I noticed my pee was a lil darker today. Guess I didn't drink enough water, so I made a contious effort to do so today. Much better. I think I pee'd 9 times at their house alone. Hahahaha I went to their bathroom so much I even took advantage of their full length mirror! (I don't have one readily available at home) Think it's my first full body pic - eeeeek!
Back hurts a lil?
Tomorrow makes a week!
Goodnite
So the family we ran into the other day asked us to come over today for some tacos.
I told my family I could do it. Saturday morning seemed hard to me because I felt like I was only thinking of food because I wasn't "doing" anything. Well after today, I'm pretty sure that's true.
I had my shake immediately after getting to their house. It was just our 2 families, no one else, which turned out to be a little hard as well. I figured if there were other people I could talk to or do someting with I might not have so preoccupied with thinking of food. Maybe that's just my coping though, maybe my desire for food, as strong as it was, will be there no matter what??
Anyway, I had my shake while eveyone ate lunch. I smelled everything too. A little after everyone ate, I was starting to want food. Thankfully, our friend was having a hard time shucking oysters, so I gladly took over. It kept my mind off of wanting to eat. Unfortunately, there were only about 20 of them so it didn't last too long.
While they were grilling I constantly thought of the gralic butter that was being poured inside them. Mmmm! I wanted to drink the melted butter and fresh crushed garlic! I watched the adults eat them and felt bad for myself, but then thought "no, it's just food. You need to be strong." This happened a few more times troughout the day... Me thinking of food and then me telling my self to 'stay strong.'
My husband and kids helped my telling me I was doing good.
The 5-7p time was the hardest. Everyone was gettng hungry again. I had kept a cup of Clamato and cup of garlic in front of me that I was periodically smelling (my son thinks this will turn into some kind od OCD/ bad habit)
I had to keep myself busy again. . . so, even though it may sound dumb, I sarted making snacks out of the food. (mixing bean dip w garlic, cutting tomotes, and putting that on a chip and giving one at a time to everyone) I know it sounds like a dumb idea, but it reallllly helped. Just by me keeping my hands busy, even if it was mixing or cutting food, I felt like my mind was somewhere other than wanting to eat the food.
It was near 730p and I was out of shakes so we said our goodbyes.
I never enjoyed my replacement bar this much as I did when I got home
A few notes- I noticed my pee was a lil darker today. Guess I didn't drink enough water, so I made a contious effort to do so today. Much better. I think I pee'd 9 times at their house alone. Hahahaha I went to their bathroom so much I even took advantage of their full length mirror! (I don't have one readily available at home) Think it's my first full body pic - eeeeek!
Back hurts a lil?
Tomorrow makes a week!
Goodnite
DAY 5 - Sept. 4, 2011
Yesterday was Day 5 and I noticed that I was much more testy and irritated than usual.. I had a feeling it was to be expected, but I felt bad. I've been pretty ick ofthese shakes so I tried to sleep in as long as I could so I wouldn't feel hungry. My strategy didn't work too well and I was up drinking my first shake by 930a. I layed in bed for another 2 hours watching some kind of speacial on "Dances with Wolves" befire I finally decided to get up and take a shower. Then it was time for another shake. My family and I decided to take a drive down to Monterey, which turned out to be an epic fail, considering it was Labor Day weekend and everyone else apparently had the same idea. We got 15 miles away from home before we were stopped dead in our tracks on Hwy 101! So we turened around and ended up at Garlic World! I think we stopped because my husband was looking for hot sauce. Walking in was sooo delightful cuz of all the garlic smells and not as torturing as I thought. Buuuuut, it also made me want to smell everything! I mean everything! I was smelling garlic braids, opening jars of garlic mustard and sauces, and even smelled the salsa that was put out for samples! This smelling thing has just gotten worse since then.
We went bowling in Morgan Hill and the kids ordered pizza and my husband got nachos with cheese and chili. I took a couple whiffs of the pizza and I'm not talking about just smelling the surrounding air. . . I am sticking my nose right up to the food, about a centimeter away from it being sucked up my nostrils and I'm inhaling like I've been trapped under water and gasping for air. Soooo sad and kinda gross and weird at the same time, but I don't know. . . the smell of food makes me feel like I'm eating it and it comforts me. I smelled the dup of chili at least ten times throughout the two games we played. My family didn't seem to mind and found it kind of funny. . . at first.
I had drank my shakes and water throughout the day. Although food's constantly on my mind, I haven't cheated! And the support I'm getting from my family and friends is helping tremendously! A simple text to "stay strong" or a compliment from my husband or kids means sooo much.
My son wanted to have a "movie night" at home with his friends so we went to Safeway and they loaded up on Bagel Bites, chips and soda. It made me start to think, just because they're not on a "diet" doesn't mean we ALL can't start to eat healthier. I think starting this week, I'm gonna start cooking at home more and paking more lunches.
By the time we got home I was hungry and it was time for another shake. As I prepared it in the kitchen, I had this overwhelming desire to take out the garlic salt and smell it. . . so I did! Was that weird or what? It made me feel better. As I was drinking my shake, I was smelling the garlic at the same time... call me crazy, but I felt very satisfied. I want to bring this up at class and find out if this is probably something I shouldn't be doing> too much tempation??
We went bowling in Morgan Hill and the kids ordered pizza and my husband got nachos with cheese and chili. I took a couple whiffs of the pizza and I'm not talking about just smelling the surrounding air. . . I am sticking my nose right up to the food, about a centimeter away from it being sucked up my nostrils and I'm inhaling like I've been trapped under water and gasping for air. Soooo sad and kinda gross and weird at the same time, but I don't know. . . the smell of food makes me feel like I'm eating it and it comforts me. I smelled the dup of chili at least ten times throughout the two games we played. My family didn't seem to mind and found it kind of funny. . . at first.
I had drank my shakes and water throughout the day. Although food's constantly on my mind, I haven't cheated! And the support I'm getting from my family and friends is helping tremendously! A simple text to "stay strong" or a compliment from my husband or kids means sooo much.
My son wanted to have a "movie night" at home with his friends so we went to Safeway and they loaded up on Bagel Bites, chips and soda. It made me start to think, just because they're not on a "diet" doesn't mean we ALL can't start to eat healthier. I think starting this week, I'm gonna start cooking at home more and paking more lunches.
By the time we got home I was hungry and it was time for another shake. As I prepared it in the kitchen, I had this overwhelming desire to take out the garlic salt and smell it. . . so I did! Was that weird or what? It made me feel better. As I was drinking my shake, I was smelling the garlic at the same time... call me crazy, but I felt very satisfied. I want to bring this up at class and find out if this is probably something I shouldn't be doing> too much tempation??
Saturday, September 3, 2011
What was I thinking?!?! Day 4 cont'd
Did I really think this diet was gonna work like magic? I'm hurting today
Today the boys went to a football game so My daughter and I decided to go to the mall. I figured we could spend some good one one time together (which we did)
What I didn't fully account for was how all the smells from the food court were gonna hit me like a ton of bricks... Maybe it was because I was hungry walking in or maybe it was watching so many people eating? I don't know, guess it was jus a dumb idea to go in the first place.
Anyway, my daughter was hungry so she got a hotdog n fries from Hot Dog on a Stick and as usual, I got my cup with ice :)
After I got that shake down, the rest of the day was fine, but I did notice that I couldn't tolerate being in the shopping crowds as much as I normally would've. Or maybe it was the fact that my mind was food every time we passed a food kiosk or eatery.
Ohhhh and then we ran into some friends hadn't seen in awhile and they were talking about inviting us over for a BBQ. More food on my mind! aahhahh!
And to top it all off, after coming home, the first thing I did was walk to the kitchen to get a glass of water , as I realized i didn't really drink much today...and what do I see?!?! A huge basket filled with perfect, vine-ripe tomatoes! Tomatoes!!!! One of my ultimate favorite foods on the planet! I just wanted to cut them in thick slices and put them on toast w fresh garlic n a lil bit of olive oil, salt, n pepper :'( waaaa!
I'm going upstairs to watch a movie n hopefully fall asleep
Today the boys went to a football game so My daughter and I decided to go to the mall. I figured we could spend some good one one time together (which we did)
What I didn't fully account for was how all the smells from the food court were gonna hit me like a ton of bricks... Maybe it was because I was hungry walking in or maybe it was watching so many people eating? I don't know, guess it was jus a dumb idea to go in the first place.
Anyway, my daughter was hungry so she got a hotdog n fries from Hot Dog on a Stick and as usual, I got my cup with ice :)
After I got that shake down, the rest of the day was fine, but I did notice that I couldn't tolerate being in the shopping crowds as much as I normally would've. Or maybe it was the fact that my mind was food every time we passed a food kiosk or eatery.
Ohhhh and then we ran into some friends hadn't seen in awhile and they were talking about inviting us over for a BBQ. More food on my mind! aahhahh!
And to top it all off, after coming home, the first thing I did was walk to the kitchen to get a glass of water , as I realized i didn't really drink much today...and what do I see?!?! A huge basket filled with perfect, vine-ripe tomatoes! Tomatoes!!!! One of my ultimate favorite foods on the planet! I just wanted to cut them in thick slices and put them on toast w fresh garlic n a lil bit of olive oil, salt, n pepper :'( waaaa!
I'm going upstairs to watch a movie n hopefully fall asleep
DAY4 - guess it wouldn't hurt to add the date , Sept. 3,2011
Today I felt like I woke up with a hangover.
Yesterday was pretty interesting; had to face a couple new challenges.
I picked up the kids from school and had to take one of them to the optometerist. After the appointment, we were all hungry (I was about an hour late for a shake) I asked the kids what they wanted to eat and they asked for McDonalds. And while I know they shouldn't eat fast food all the time, the quick convenience of getting them food to stop their whining over ruled my better judgement. My first drive thru... They ordered their food and I ordered a cup of ice. The smell of the French fries was almost unbearable. Before passing the bag to my son, I shoved my face into the bag and took the biggest, longest whiff of French fries that afterwards, I was exhaling their fumes...I miss fast food...nah, just food period. Isn't there something that's supposed to change in us during this program where we don't care or crave for food anymore??? well it's definitely not happening for me anytime soon. I wanted a French frie or a bite of that Big Mac soooo bad! But I stayed strong and poured my shake into the small paper cup of ice.
Later in the day we loaded up and headed out to the first football game of the season...my first semi social event...granted it wasnt surrounded or centered on food, but it was still a lil difficult. Before going to the game, we stopped at Rite Aid to pick up some poster material, drinks, and gum. While there, I told the kids to get snacks since I didn't want to buy any from the snack shack..and for a quick moment I glanced at sunflower seeds and thought about grabbing them because whats a football game without seeds? I forgot for just a split second!! Guess I'd find out what a game without seeds was like :(
I bought myself three drinks, a water and two Lifewaters as I could have any drink with five or less calories. The lifewaters have zero...thank goodness cuz I was getting sick of trying to suck down plain water. The game was fun, kids were hanging out with their friends and we got to see a few people we hadn't seen in a long time. I had a shake and a bar while we there , from 5-10p. It was a late nite and I crashed in bed as soon as I got home.
And like I said earlier I woke up feeling like crap, buuuut, because the boys went to another football game earlier this morning I had to get up for baby girl...and of course she was hungry. It's sad to say I've been on this program for 4 days and this morning was the first meal I've cooked for any of my kids...but it's true. I was dreading going down stairs to cook, anticipating the smells and desire to taste test at least, but I made it through. I made her eggs and Chinese sausage, a breakfast fave of mine. I already knew, while walking down,mwhat I was making for her, so I turned the stove on Hi, put the pan on, got everything out and cooked as fast as I could.. I cracked the eggs in and microwaved the sausage for faster cooking time...threw it all together and my first cooked meal for someone else was done... Picked myself up a glass of ice and headed back upstairs after I gave her breakfast to her.
Gosh I want food!!!!
Im goin back to bed after I down this shake :(
Yesterday was pretty interesting; had to face a couple new challenges.
I picked up the kids from school and had to take one of them to the optometerist. After the appointment, we were all hungry (I was about an hour late for a shake) I asked the kids what they wanted to eat and they asked for McDonalds. And while I know they shouldn't eat fast food all the time, the quick convenience of getting them food to stop their whining over ruled my better judgement. My first drive thru... They ordered their food and I ordered a cup of ice. The smell of the French fries was almost unbearable. Before passing the bag to my son, I shoved my face into the bag and took the biggest, longest whiff of French fries that afterwards, I was exhaling their fumes...I miss fast food...nah, just food period. Isn't there something that's supposed to change in us during this program where we don't care or crave for food anymore??? well it's definitely not happening for me anytime soon. I wanted a French frie or a bite of that Big Mac soooo bad! But I stayed strong and poured my shake into the small paper cup of ice.
Later in the day we loaded up and headed out to the first football game of the season...my first semi social event...granted it wasnt surrounded or centered on food, but it was still a lil difficult. Before going to the game, we stopped at Rite Aid to pick up some poster material, drinks, and gum. While there, I told the kids to get snacks since I didn't want to buy any from the snack shack..and for a quick moment I glanced at sunflower seeds and thought about grabbing them because whats a football game without seeds? I forgot for just a split second!! Guess I'd find out what a game without seeds was like :(
I bought myself three drinks, a water and two Lifewaters as I could have any drink with five or less calories. The lifewaters have zero...thank goodness cuz I was getting sick of trying to suck down plain water. The game was fun, kids were hanging out with their friends and we got to see a few people we hadn't seen in a long time. I had a shake and a bar while we there , from 5-10p. It was a late nite and I crashed in bed as soon as I got home.
And like I said earlier I woke up feeling like crap, buuuut, because the boys went to another football game earlier this morning I had to get up for baby girl...and of course she was hungry. It's sad to say I've been on this program for 4 days and this morning was the first meal I've cooked for any of my kids...but it's true. I was dreading going down stairs to cook, anticipating the smells and desire to taste test at least, but I made it through. I made her eggs and Chinese sausage, a breakfast fave of mine. I already knew, while walking down,mwhat I was making for her, so I turned the stove on Hi, put the pan on, got everything out and cooked as fast as I could.. I cracked the eggs in and microwaved the sausage for faster cooking time...threw it all together and my first cooked meal for someone else was done... Picked myself up a glass of ice and headed back upstairs after I gave her breakfast to her.
Gosh I want food!!!!
Im goin back to bed after I down this shake :(
Friday, September 2, 2011
DAY 3
7:30am
I woke up feel much better today :)
And although I'm not ready to share my starting weight with everyone, I checked this morning. . . I've lost 8 pounds! WoW! I don't even feel like it though. All that from peeing??
**Disclaimer: If bowel movements (BMs) gross you out, skip the rest of this paragraph**
Okay, for those of you wondering, yes, I do have em, even though this is an all-liquid (plus one bar per day) program. I had regular BMs for the first day and then yesterday. . . OMG! I even took pictures! But I am not going to post!haha It looked like I gave birth to a family of dark chocolate Hershey bars in the toilet! It was so dark! And then by the end of the day it was like I was peeing outta my ass! Anyway, hopefully that gets regulated soon. I can't go 4 months with liquid poop :(
11:11am - I went to bathroom at work and the BMs are back to normal, just small and dark :-/
*** Okay you can open your eyes now*** hahaha
I started my second shake of today at about 10:35am and I'm still trying to suck it down almost 45mins later . . . I'm getting sick of them already.
On a brighter note, I went to Zumba last night! I sweated sooooo much! Way more than usual. After zumba I was feeling pretty good, but my left calf / ankle was killing me so I decided to get spoiled at Splendid Foot (a massage parlor).
I walked in and they said I had to wait thirty minutes, which was good, because it gave me time to somewhat dry my hair :)
But even after the 30 min wait and the hour massage, I could still feel the sweat on me.
I like the idea of making up my own workout routine, rather than having it dictated to me by someone. (i.e., a close someone telling you ' you need to go to the gym, you need to run, you need to . . you need to. . blah blah blah. I feel like saying, "you NEED to shut up!" LOL) I know he's really trying to be helpful, but sometimes you just need a sounding board and not an opinion.
So anyway, this morning I decided to wake up and go to the gym after taking my son to school. I went to the 24 fitness and did 40 mins on the eliptical.
I'm feeling pretty good about myself. . . 8 pound loss and working out everyday so far! I'll keep pushing to be successful. . . dark poop and icky shakes n all!
I woke up feel much better today :)
And although I'm not ready to share my starting weight with everyone, I checked this morning. . . I've lost 8 pounds! WoW! I don't even feel like it though. All that from peeing??
**Disclaimer: If bowel movements (BMs) gross you out, skip the rest of this paragraph**
Okay, for those of you wondering, yes, I do have em, even though this is an all-liquid (plus one bar per day) program. I had regular BMs for the first day and then yesterday. . . OMG! I even took pictures! But I am not going to post!haha It looked like I gave birth to a family of dark chocolate Hershey bars in the toilet! It was so dark! And then by the end of the day it was like I was peeing outta my ass! Anyway, hopefully that gets regulated soon. I can't go 4 months with liquid poop :(
11:11am - I went to bathroom at work and the BMs are back to normal, just small and dark :-/
*** Okay you can open your eyes now*** hahaha
I started my second shake of today at about 10:35am and I'm still trying to suck it down almost 45mins later . . . I'm getting sick of them already.
On a brighter note, I went to Zumba last night! I sweated sooooo much! Way more than usual. After zumba I was feeling pretty good, but my left calf / ankle was killing me so I decided to get spoiled at Splendid Foot (a massage parlor).
I walked in and they said I had to wait thirty minutes, which was good, because it gave me time to somewhat dry my hair :)
But even after the 30 min wait and the hour massage, I could still feel the sweat on me.
I like the idea of making up my own workout routine, rather than having it dictated to me by someone. (i.e., a close someone telling you ' you need to go to the gym, you need to run, you need to . . you need to. . blah blah blah. I feel like saying, "you NEED to shut up!" LOL) I know he's really trying to be helpful, but sometimes you just need a sounding board and not an opinion.
So anyway, this morning I decided to wake up and go to the gym after taking my son to school. I went to the 24 fitness and did 40 mins on the eliptical.
I'm feeling pretty good about myself. . . 8 pound loss and working out everyday so far! I'll keep pushing to be successful. . . dark poop and icky shakes n all!
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