Yesterday was Day 5 and I noticed that I was much more testy and irritated than usual.. I had a feeling it was to be expected, but I felt bad. I've been pretty ick ofthese shakes so I tried to sleep in as long as I could so I wouldn't feel hungry. My strategy didn't work too well and I was up drinking my first shake by 930a. I layed in bed for another 2 hours watching some kind of speacial on "Dances with Wolves" befire I finally decided to get up and take a shower. Then it was time for another shake. My family and I decided to take a drive down to Monterey, which turned out to be an epic fail, considering it was Labor Day weekend and everyone else apparently had the same idea. We got 15 miles away from home before we were stopped dead in our tracks on Hwy 101! So we turened around and ended up at Garlic World! I think we stopped because my husband was looking for hot sauce. Walking in was sooo delightful cuz of all the garlic smells and not as torturing as I thought. Buuuuut, it also made me want to smell everything! I mean everything! I was smelling garlic braids, opening jars of garlic mustard and sauces, and even smelled the salsa that was put out for samples! This smelling thing has just gotten worse since then.
We went bowling in Morgan Hill and the kids ordered pizza and my husband got nachos with cheese and chili. I took a couple whiffs of the pizza and I'm not talking about just smelling the surrounding air. . . I am sticking my nose right up to the food, about a centimeter away from it being sucked up my nostrils and I'm inhaling like I've been trapped under water and gasping for air. Soooo sad and kinda gross and weird at the same time, but I don't know. . . the smell of food makes me feel like I'm eating it and it comforts me. I smelled the dup of chili at least ten times throughout the two games we played. My family didn't seem to mind and found it kind of funny. . . at first.
I had drank my shakes and water throughout the day. Although food's constantly on my mind, I haven't cheated! And the support I'm getting from my family and friends is helping tremendously! A simple text to "stay strong" or a compliment from my husband or kids means sooo much.
My son wanted to have a "movie night" at home with his friends so we went to Safeway and they loaded up on Bagel Bites, chips and soda. It made me start to think, just because they're not on a "diet" doesn't mean we ALL can't start to eat healthier. I think starting this week, I'm gonna start cooking at home more and paking more lunches.
By the time we got home I was hungry and it was time for another shake. As I prepared it in the kitchen, I had this overwhelming desire to take out the garlic salt and smell it. . . so I did! Was that weird or what? It made me feel better. As I was drinking my shake, I was smelling the garlic at the same time... call me crazy, but I felt very satisfied. I want to bring this up at class and find out if this is probably something I shouldn't be doing> too much tempation??
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