So the family we ran into the other day asked us to come over today for some tacos.
I told my family I could do it. Saturday morning seemed hard to me because I felt like I was only thinking of food because I wasn't "doing" anything. Well after today, I'm pretty sure that's true.
I had my shake immediately after getting to their house. It was just our 2 families, no one else, which turned out to be a little hard as well. I figured if there were other people I could talk to or do someting with I might not have so preoccupied with thinking of food. Maybe that's just my coping though, maybe my desire for food, as strong as it was, will be there no matter what??
Anyway, I had my shake while eveyone ate lunch. I smelled everything too. A little after everyone ate, I was starting to want food. Thankfully, our friend was having a hard time shucking oysters, so I gladly took over. It kept my mind off of wanting to eat. Unfortunately, there were only about 20 of them so it didn't last too long.
While they were grilling I constantly thought of the gralic butter that was being poured inside them. Mmmm! I wanted to drink the melted butter and fresh crushed garlic! I watched the adults eat them and felt bad for myself, but then thought "no, it's just food. You need to be strong." This happened a few more times troughout the day... Me thinking of food and then me telling my self to 'stay strong.'
My husband and kids helped my telling me I was doing good.
The 5-7p time was the hardest. Everyone was gettng hungry again. I had kept a cup of Clamato and cup of garlic in front of me that I was periodically smelling (my son thinks this will turn into some kind od OCD/ bad habit)
I had to keep myself busy again. . . so, even though it may sound dumb, I sarted making snacks out of the food. (mixing bean dip w garlic, cutting tomotes, and putting that on a chip and giving one at a time to everyone) I know it sounds like a dumb idea, but it reallllly helped. Just by me keeping my hands busy, even if it was mixing or cutting food, I felt like my mind was somewhere other than wanting to eat the food.
It was near 730p and I was out of shakes so we said our goodbyes.
I never enjoyed my replacement bar this much as I did when I got home
A few notes- I noticed my pee was a lil darker today. Guess I didn't drink enough water, so I made a contious effort to do so today. Much better. I think I pee'd 9 times at their house alone. Hahahaha I went to their bathroom so much I even took advantage of their full length mirror! (I don't have one readily available at home) Think it's my first full body pic - eeeeek!
Back hurts a lil?
Tomorrow makes a week!
Goodnite
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